A Southern Rehabilitation

I know there have been untold references and discussions and shows and specials on the year that was "2020," but I would be doing myself a disservice to my journaling if I didn't do my own post about it. After all, I will forget all those other shows and specials, but here, here I will have documentation of my own journey through the "year that was 2020."  I remember choosing my word for 2020: it was self-care. I was going to make 2020 the year of taking care of myself in a myriad of different ways. I got off to a good start. I joined a gym and I was going fairly regularly. I had a positive mindset and I was being mindful of all the choices I was making whether food-related, friend-related, management of time, blogging, etc... Little did I know, or did any of us know, the absolute train wreck that was about to happen.  I remember the day clearly. March 13th. A Friday. We had all heard the news of this Coronavirus and how it was rapidly spreading to the US. I wa...

I don't know about you, but sometimes I think about past boyfriends/past relationships. (back in the day so to speak) I wonder where they are, who they married or if they married. How many kids do they have? What kind of job? Are they happy people now? And an even bigger question in my mind is "What do they look like now?" (shallow, I know. ha)  These are all things I'm curious about; I'd like to know.  Maybe it is more of a girl thing. I don't know. Some of those boyfriends lasted longer than others (for good reason) and some I enjoyed while we were together and when the relationship was over I was Okay with it. Like alrighty, that was fun but I'm ready for the next adventure. I've had a couple that really broke my heart. Then there was that one. The one who should've been "the one." Yep, I have one of those. I have rarely spoken about this person. My kids don't know this story. Most of my friends don't know this story. This ...

Have you ever wondered what the term "letting go" actually means? We say it all the time. You need to "let go" of that hurt. You need to "let go" of the pain such and such is causing.  "Let it go" and move on.  People say to me, "You're just going to have to 'let it go,' Dawn." Every where we turn we seem to hear those words. There's even a VERY popular song called "Let It Go."  (If by some miracle you don't know the song, you can listen to it here ). It really is a pretty good song... now if only I could be that brave. Let my hair down, shake off the old dress for a stunning gown, stretch out my arms and sing my heart out! The thing is, HOW do I just "let it go?"  I am working on trying to figure that out. It's the very last day of March. This means the one year mark for our Separation is only 14 days away. 14 days and we can file for divorce. It is very doubtful that it will happen on ...